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Sunday, March 09, 2008

Be No Me

Title: Be No Me
Song: Xzibit - Thankyou
Genre: Motivational

See words can never mean, what the ear hears.
Everything around this world, has a double meaning-
that the eye can't see.
All these feelings can change- at a moment, at a time,
at an instance, never know, never feel, never seems-
right...
Sometimes I wonder why?
why do I still write, why do I still find
rhymes to fill these lines-
to express how I'm feeling at the time?
These 2 sides, 2 signs, fucking with my mind-
makes it 2 hard to shine.
Makes me want to give in and let the world,
stomp all over me...
Kick me, punch me, pick me up and throw me.
Makes me think twice before I make my next step,
next move, next time I hit the preps-
Build it all inside- makes me wanna go insane,
this growing pain, keeps me on the drain-
wasting my energy on the wrong lane.
Need to shift it on the overdrive,
overtake, overcome this current strive.
Back to square one, get this brain undone,
rebuild it piece by piece, brick by brick.
Draw every single thing line by line, ink by ink.
'til I can see the bigger picture-
remember all the little shit, every little bit.
Every single thing, that has built me-
to the person that you see,
so you can remember this,
"If there ain't no you- there can be no me."

-eLkc '08

Posted at 01:49 am by LkcJai

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LkcJai™
Named: Craig
Name Tags: get low...™, LkcJai™ and - [c^L] | PhuK! ™
D.O.B: 11/01/88
Gender: Male (sorry guys I'm not female)
Status: Single.
Nationality: Big 6's
Speaks: English (my canton and mando are quite bad so I'll stick to english)
Occupation: Sales Representative (Soul)
Starsign: Capricorn

About me
-I'm a recent graduate of a shit school. KHS
-I like to put in 40% effort into anything so when I fail, I'm only 40% depressed.
-I'm Asian and proud of it.
-My family tree is abit wacked.
-Starting with a 11 year old auntie.
-I hate alot of people don't know why.
-I probably don't like you
-But then I might not.
-If I like you I'm loyal, yes I'm proud of it.
-Don't know why people think hates a bad word.
-As you can see I'm honest
-I'm negative.
-I'm positive when I'm with someone negative. (work it out)
-I don't like to show off. Mostly cause I don't have much to show off.
-I'm modest and I'll keep it that way.
-Don't like sitting on the fence.
-Cause it hurts my arse.
-I'm cold.
-Cause all my jackets in the wash.
-I love Eggy
-I'm not gay

What do I hate?
-I'll try to keep this list short.
-Pest. Cockaroaches must die.
-Cockaroach lovers
-People with cockaroaches as pets.
-Being told what to do.
-Studying.
-List of people.
-Terrorist
-Faker'ist
-Suck up'ist

Love the feeling of...
-My bed.
-Doing something for somebody without them knowing.
-Exhausted out muscles.

I like...
-Cherry ripe
-Unbelievably, I like to meet new people.
-Happy Chef... (free advertisement)
-Skylines *Droolz*
-Yamaha R1's *Drools*
-Sleep-in's
-BBQ's
-Linkin Park (if not noticed)
-Rock, I was born a rocker.
-Also love urban music.
-CRUNK KEEP IT CRUNK.
-Dogs, love dogs.
-Comedians gotta love them.

Operations: [Strike outs = Mission Accomplished]
~~-Staying in bed all day~~
~~-Eat fast food all day~~
~~-Stay awake all night~~
~~-Holiday to China~~ -Another holiday to china
~~-Go city just to play Daytona~~
-Eat in the toilet
-Hug a random stranger
~~-Knock and runs~~
-Kick and runs
-'Egg' someones house
-'Apple' someones house
~~-Snowboarding~~
-Save up for a Supra
~~-Get my 'L's~~
-Get my 'P's
~~-Give Eggy a hug~~
~~-PS2 all day~~
~~-24hours Starve~~
~~-Wash Leng-Jai~~
~~-Walk the Dog after 12pm~~
-Randomly trip people
~~-Kicked out of the Library~~
~~-Kicked out of a Hotel~~
-Chuck a BBQ party at Sydney Tech
-Steal a Street Sign
~~-Mow the lawn~~
~~-Sleep nake~~
-Level 70 Druid
-Level 70 Rogue
-Level 70 Mage

Final Section
I'm negative yes, but i'm nice... in a way.
Don't worry I won't bite unless your made of chocolate.

LkcJai™ Pieces

[ON MY OWN]™
i'am on my own, silent and quiet,
i walk in peoples shadows,
let people walk and tread all over me
i'm the one who u don't want to know,
weak in the mind and soft to the bone

i'm the china boy who sits alone on the swings
friendless in dear and silent group activities,
com com chant ur evil song,
yes pull my hair and call me names,
cos' i'm a chin chong u don't want to no me...

i'am the lonely boy with no place to be,
i belong no where, i don't fit in
i see open doorways, but no-one seems to let me in,
yes thats me crying till my eyes r all dry,
cos' i... just wanted to be seen...

i'am the depressed boy, tryin to outrun reality,
as time flys by i watch ppl irritate me,
as time flys by i generate hate within me,
yes i'm growing and u can't stop me
cos' theres something wicked lingering within me

i'am still that china boy, irrated by many,
covered with false glee, but still lonely deep within
but these depressions are only memories
yes i'am still on my own, silence but explosive
but i can't seem to fear when ppl bleed like i bleed
coz now i'am crazy in the mind and cold to the bone

[CRAZY MINDZ]™
its.
already hard to find words to rhyme,
its.
already in the heart of these dark times,
but,
wotevas in these crazy minds,
are just dreams, golden stream lines,
hopefully theres one in mine...

[SUICIDAL HOPE...]™
itz one of these days u wanna sit and cry,
till ur hearts all dead and ur eyes all dry,
then u wonder when dayz like these will end or die,
when u wonder wot u'll feel when u pull the plug,
where ur body goes cold and ur soul just flys..
to another place, a place far away...
a place wit not hate, a place wit no fakes,
but... when u think of those u'll leave behind,
u stop and compare...
ur happy days to ur sad times,
ur life to others lives,
selfishness is in everyones minds-
but hope will come in time...

[U WANNABE]™
walking around wit them devil eyes,
smoke in ur mouth like theres stress on ur mind,
walking wit ur 'boyz' like ur sick or some shit,
roll the weak, run from cops, drink and spit...
look at u bitch think u some strong cunt
party hard and pull some chicks,
sorry sorry, hard cunt, hard cunt
pplz look, tell me wot u see
coz pplz, a gangsta wannabe,
is wot i see...
don't bust around like ur wallets thick...
bitch don't act big,
u just make me wanna click, click, click.

[AZN CREW]™
kidz u beta reckonise,
we da communist,
wit them dollars up high,
we da pro capitalist,
u beta analyse...
gotz them burning flames,
pumping through our veins,
gotz them crazy thoughts,
flowing through our brains,
we're untop-able,
unstop-able,
our culture, our nature, untouchable...
fellow boyz and galz chuck ur hands up high
show these mutha fukaz
our phenomenal pride,
we the azn crew,
bitch who the hell r u?

[WORST NIGHTMARE]™
should i be despair and drown in my own iniquity?
let u coz fear in me- run all over me?
fuk that i'ma rhyme till y'all get sick of me,
take down fellaz who wanna pick on me,
evil lies within me, so bad u ain't wanna see,
the other side of me,
y fear pplz when they bleed like i bleed,
chuck a P like i P, HAHAHA
take the pieces out and watch it shot in 3D,
lay low, stay down u ain't got the moves to deal wit me,
sleep in fear, remember me
i'm ur fearfactor bitch i'm ur worst nightmare gee...

[THE STREET]™
this the place where laughter fills the streets,
this the neighbour hood where kindness runs deep,
where happiness shines and sadness dies,
where time flys by and kids r still outside,
till its dark parents com and forces the kids inside,
but this streets still bright, for now the old ones r now outside,
chit chat abt anything, about making their sons 'kings' and their daughters 'queens'
for now their princes and princesses,
so happy for they live on this street,

time flys by and kids r not kids no more,
things have changed now,
there isn't much people outside anymore,
the street isn't as loud as it was before,
the only sounds heard now r only electronics,
theres no games outside, no sport playing lunitics
this streets dark now, the laughters all gone some how,
the dreams for kings and queens r now in despair,
cause now the princes and princesses
living in the street don't seen to care

this the place where quietness fills the streets
this the neighbourhood where selfishness runs deep,
happiness now seems to die and sadness, shines...
times flys by and teenagers are still inside,
till its time parents occasionly come outside,
by theres no chit chat anymore,
for now the streets dark and the light won't shine,
theres no more princes and princesses,
no more kings and queens to be,
this streets now dead, u see

[WHAT I'VE BECOME]™
Its hard to find the words to rhyme,
to express hows the feelin at that time,
clocks ticking, already in the heart of dark times,
but,
wotevas in these crazy minds,
are just dreams-
golden stream lines,
hopefully theres one in mine..
'n...if i die the next day,
join ancestors, rise to heaven- or float far away,
hopefully my dreams will live on,
in generations to come,
not by all the crap i've dun,
but by wot i've become.

[SHINING LIGHT]™
Aim, for wot u wanna be,
Fight, 4 wot u wanna see,
Watch, u'll past this evenually,
Read, these shit carefully.
'Walk, by faith n not by sight,
Look, not for darkness but for shining light.'

[RACE AND FACE]™
Feel this rage when i step on stage,
Making u feel bad,
4 making me feel sad,
i take the sunshine with tha pain,
i take the dry heat wit the rain,
watch i'll win this race,
then watch me come bak,
and rub all my shit in ur face.

[BOREDOM]™
Fiddling with the words
is a cure for my boredom
riddles that are created
is a moment 4 my frame of mind
somewhere deep inside
theres a collection,
of riddles created from the words,
all fiddled due to my boredom.

[BACK-TRACKING]™
Where did we start, where did we end.
What we had was so different,
to everything we had.
Back tracking is whats left,
of the connection we had,
what went wrong, what went bad?
I dunno... What to make of this.
I'm so stressed and exhausted
of thinking how to make this better...
I held it in and I brushed it off my mind,
of ideas how to make this last longer...
I kept it in and I slowly died...

[I'M SO FUCKED]™
So sick and tired
these thoughts have fuelled me
got me- thinking, got me-
so thickly fired.
Its burning in my mind.
All this shit is killing me
I'm fucken wasting my time.
All this shit is fucked unbelievably.
I don't mean to swear but I dunno
no words to express,
all this stress within me.
My minds about to blow.
Can't seem to hold it.
Its like a hand full of splinters,
pressed on my head.
Its like a heart full of anger
held to my chest.
And I don't want these feelings to stay.
Everynight I dream that i'm falling.
And I don't wanna fucken feel this way.
Everyday I just wannabe screaming
Till my lungs are sore
till I eventually fall.

[JUST]™
All these thoughts just constantly run through my head.
All this pain just constantly cuts my heart wide apart.
And every night just wish I could sleep and never wake up,
I just wish I could be dead.
Cause this pain is just draining my life,
I just ain't got nothing to live for...
Its just driving me to the brink of insane,
I just ain't got the power to roar...
Like my heart, my voice is just as sore..
Things weren't like 'things' before,
And people weren't like 'people' no more.
My blood is just boiling,
everytime I try they all just ignore,
my throughts, my dreams.
All must be tore apart and its just driving me crazy.
But I just can't speak, cause if I opened my mouth.
I'll just scream.
and I'll just hide my anger,
just so used to it...
I'm just so sick of it.

[RIGHT THROUGH YOU]™
You always wanna be the first one,
to be and get the best shit.
You can't hack crap, son-
the more that I think about it,
the more that you remind me of a faggot kid,
the more that you act,
the more that you look like a gay bitch.
And you ain't the normal type of gay,
your the gay wit no dick-
But an asshole full of shit,
but no shit in your mind or soul,
don't have any skills to show.
Tho,
you're always talking off your mouth
but then the real problems comes,
you never get it done.
And if you do,
You'll always screw it up,
so what must I do, for you,
to shut the fuck up?
Your minds so simple and corrupt,
you don't deserve to be a player.
Your lifes so fucked and messed up,
You don't deserve to be a fella.
whenever I'm near, can't feel you.
Cause everytime I'm near you,
I see right through you.

LkcJai™ Po'z

[FROM DA DAY I SAW U]™
from the day i saw you,
i knew ur beauty was so true,
grabbed me by the heart,
i stood and starred,
ur eyes like stars,
so bright, so lovely,
so warm, so cuddly,
but i'm scared to ask,
to extend this relationship between us,
all i wanna say
is let me hold ur hands,
and let me be ur man

[FREE...]™
lettin u get away from me,
lettin u be wot u wanna be,
lettin u see wot u wanna see,
lettin u go free,
since ur not comin bak to me,
theres just no u and me,
no 'we',
somethings been ripped wide apart,
my shaddered,
broken heart...

[LONELY MIND]™
if i'd get the gutz, i'd tell u, how much i feel,
my heart 4 u...so deep... so true,
i'll be there to call u sweety,
i'll be there to cheer u up,
i'll be there to hold u tightly,
i'll be there to pick u up,
all becoz,
everyday, everynight,
everywhere, everytime,
u're alway on my lonely mind,

[I'LL BE THERE]™
i no u don't,
wanna be around me,
i no u don't,
wanna tok to me...
but...
as long as ur smiling and happy,
i don't mind wot u think of me,
till the day ur comfortable wit me,
i'll be there
when ur mad
i'll be there
when ur sad...

[TOMORROW...?]™
dayz that i realise,
an angel like u,
r so unique, r so sweet,
always on my mind,
i...wanna hold u, tightly,
and everytime
i...wanna care 4 u, faithfully,
ur a gurl from above,
i ain't playing, i ain't lying,
is tis love?
but fate n time will tell if we r meant to be,
if theres a place in our hearts, 4 u and me,
everything u heard,
this is my word...
"When the day is dun,
and my tomorrow never comes,
when my soul floatz far away,
my heart 4 u,
will forever stay....'

[NEXT TO YOU]™
I'm scared of being next to you,
I'm scared of what i'll do,
for ur like my dreams come true...
What m I to do when i'm next to you?

[BE WITH ME]™
I want u next to me,
I want u, ur the one i need,
for you and me are meant to be...
i think of you, will u think of me?

[LEI LIKE NGOR?]™
u dunno me? aw...
me the one who will wipe and cleanse ur tears lor...
me the one who will protect u from fears lor...
and if ur lonely i'll be rite next to u wor...
me the one who will sent u roses...
wait... i think i dun that already wor...
why? coz i think lei ho cute lor...
but... when i'm around u, i'm silence wor...
but i'm still there bor!
i see u smile i'm like 'wa....ho ho ho cute borr!'
i see u hurt i'm like 'no talk bash bash lor!!!'
why? coz i like lei lor...
will u like a guy like ngor...?
but... i won't force u too like ngor...
i like lei thats all that matters lor...

[MONA LISA]™
Days are bright as sun brings light
then its night,
the skys are dark,
and in the pitch blackness,
stars will shine, there to guide,
there to bring light...
so when i see u smile like mona lisa,
theres still sadness in ur eyes,
all that i can do is hold u,
and love u like i always do...
could i be ur star in the night?

[BYE]™
they say whats yours is yours,
loosen a grip and let it free,
boy and girl?
if they meet again, their meant to be,
i've let u go
loosen a grip and let u free,
but we never met, i guess we're not meant to be
guess again,
beauty and the beast just don't mix
i won't bother u again,
this is probably the last u'll hear from me...

[NEVER]™
I never mean for all this to end this way,
I forever remember them days I spent with you,
I wouldn't mind being with you everyday,
I doubt anyone will ever be you or replace you,
like Aviation- "You were my everything"
Before you, my days were so gloomy,
I'll tell you for you I'd do anything.
since you came my days been so lovely.
I confest to the papers that we exchanged,
then days without you I got jealous too,
and I'm so sorry that I once ever made you cry.
I felt the same way, the way that you felt for me,
I swear and I'd ever promise you,
I'll never make you ever shed a single tear.
and from this day till forever,
you'll always be in my heart as my friend to the end,
and we'll never be pulled apart...

Special Thanks to Sammy F, peace.

K.H.S. Six years of hell. Honestly... No-one cried on graduation...

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